BLESSTHEBROKENROAD.

This is so random but this being post number 62 reminds me of you because 62 was sorta our bus ride together. :) :) Haha there are days where you come up to my mind once in a while, unexpectedly. Wonder how you're doing now.

WILL RUN IN TWO DAYS. As the days come, I don't know if I can do 17km now. I need all the hope and will I can get to do this. To be honest, Will Run is more of a mental barrier to me rather than the rationale of it to raise funds; the raising funds part is pretty much secondary in my opinion. Because never in my life have I conquered 10km, much less wanting to conquer 17km. If the number gets pass 10, I'll be super stoked because I did something I've never thought I'd be able to do. (I used to get 20 minutes just to complete my 2.4km fyi)

I'm such a loserrrrrrrrrr. :( To let Will Run get to me. Ahhh. SHalll snooze now.

<3 nella.

ONTHEDANCEFLOOR.

It's been a while since my last update. Kay more than awhile, more like forever. (in my context sinceI really abhor super dead blogs)

Overload of David Guetta right now. Awesomepossum. :)

This week is a jam packed test week. 2 major tests okay! Had the Maths one today. Practically copied half of the graphs because I'm perpetually weak in graphs and its transformation. :( I'll try not to avoid graphs as much as I can and try to grasp it as soon as possible... Although reluctant to do so.
The second test would be Econs. :( Ahhh I so totally do not understand the curves for it at all. MC, AC, TVC, MR. How mind-boggling. I shall attempt to do as much as I can now before I call it a night because today has been an uber long day for me. (School officially ended for me at 8 because of Cambodia) And tomorrow's not gonna be any better because there's water training AND Releve. I foresee many late nights in Term 3 and 4 because Promo's are in only 8 friggin' weeks(!!!)

And this week is also jam-packed because of Will Run and Releve. Releve's tomorrow! And Will Run's on Saturday. Aiming to clock 17km on Saturday. And as cliche as I seem, coming to SR and immersing myself in the running culture, I'm surprised I can run more than 2.4km AND clock a decent timing for that. 17km okay? :) :) :)

And I can't wait for Nike Human Race!

God I sound like a geek now. I lack a life. I miss my birthday. :(

And thus I shall sleep now. Econs will continue tomorrow morning.

<3 nella.

TODAYWASAFAIRYTALE.

"One of the worst feelings to have is being so fed up and pissed with yourself without knowing the reasons why."

I can't stand myself sometimes, really.

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I don't know how to tell people this but I'm gonna try.

I wanna be fucking skinny. I DETEST, I HATE, I DISLIKE what I look like now. It's both a WANT and a NEED that I become skinnier. I fucking dislike being chubby, fat, plump or any nice terms to say that I'm fat and huge.

Fuck man, no one fucking understands. The higher I fucking go, the higher I fucking fall.
And yeah I do care about what people think of me. I don't want people to call me "big" or what fucking term there is.

I WANT TO BE SKINNY.
Fuck all this bullcrap.

I HATE WEEKENDS.
To the max, to the core, all the way.

I rather be in school seven days a week, studying. Because this totally screws up my diet like all the way.

I need you guys so bad now. :(

<3 nella.

SAY.

Embarked on my journey~ This would be a perfect and good time since I've got all my friends rallying, supporting and pushing me. :) :) So I'm not fighting this battle alone like I always do. I'm so not gonna give up like I did all the times before.

Training yesterday was EPIC. (in good ways and bad)

1. SzeYing and I were on the K2 in the middle of the lanes and we capsized.
2. Dongli saw us and got Javier and Kris to save us.
3. And when they were emptying the water out of our boat, a sudden burst in pressure caused both of them to capsize as well. -_-
4. We were practically the only school out there and we were in the middle of the lanes and the pontoon is like 1234567890m away. Till we saw..
5. JESUS. Coming down to us in his trusty little canoe, with the sun rays basking behind him.
6. Jesus tried to save us but he capsized as well. :(
7. But slowly, Jesus was saved!
8. He saved Kris + SY, then Javier and I.
9. The power of Jesusssss. :)

(Jesus = Daniel HAHA)

After pumpings, we had some reflection to do. When it came to me, I said my stuff and I just broke down. Literally. Second time since I joined canoeing and for people who know me, crying is not my daily affair whatsoever.. So yeah it shocked me and definitely the others too. Nonetheless, thanks guys for being so supportive and encouraging. I will definitely do better and push myself way more harder from now on. :) :) :)

I ate <1000 calories today (and yesterday)!!! And ran 4km in 21 mins (with help from SY and Rufus) :) :) :) Will Run's coming up; I'm aiming for 16km in 1h45min. Push push push!!!

Shin splints ain't a very happy affair....

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