Far From Over.

Week 2 of school, overrr. Week 3 is an uber slack week because I don't have school from Wednesday to Friday (except for trainings) And if you include the weekends, there's no school for 5 days. Awesome. The school finally realised that it was redundant to have the SPs go for the boring academic talks and stuffs on the first 2 days. Bliss. :)

But with that, one day is bad enough while one week is killer. :( sighhhh.

Next 2 days of school is pretty redundant cos I end latest at 10 on both days and we can only leave school at 2. Naize move, SR. Very brilliant.

I like to be happy. And I'm glad I have been since the start of 2011. :)

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Fireworks.

I survived week 1 of school yay. Then again I can't die from school. Oh well.

Now I know how it feels to get that prejudiced feeling from teachers just because you're a retainee. There are some teachers who don't treat SPs differently, but there are teachers who just have this biased thing against SPs, which sucks. It's like you did your work (but you dont know how) but at least you wrote something, but yet you get scolded for having the "wrong attitude" and "not trying hard enough". Got scolded twice last week for that.

I'm just gonna believe they care. Just in the unconventional way.

Tuition later. :( and I gotta do Maths and finish up GP tonight.

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GoodbyeGravity.

First day of school today. SP program for me.

I won't deny, it is a very sucky feeling when you see your J2 friends discussing about their hectic timetable and how they have so much stuff to do; it just makes you wish you were part of that circle. But no, nothing's gonna change the fact that I'm a retainee all by myself while they are all J2 students.

But really, is moping about this sucky feeling all I wanna do? True that it sucks a lot and the feeling really bites and stings. But I retained for a reason, simply because I'm not up for J2 yet and this is my second chance to prove myself and everyone that I WILL be able to do it. I'm just taking longer in my journey. If I want change, I have to do something about it to feel better instead of letting fate play with me.

So, I am gonna be that difference. I am gonna show everyone that I will be able to thrive under such circumstances. The Fionella from 2010 and before would cry and mope under such situations. Not this time. I'm not going to let my tears and fears overwhelm what I can really do. I am not going to wallow in despair when there are plenty of options for me to choose from.

The ride's gonna be one tough one. It's like you don't know what to expect, but yet you do. But I know I'll come out just fine. :)

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Countdown!

Less than an hour to 7th of January! :):):)

Gonna leave the house soon to execute my masterplan! Gotta catch the last 62 on time though. And then walk home because 112 would not come on time fml. Ahhhh it'd be worth it! 19 prez and 1 p.osh brownie. I feel so capable cos I had nothing last week and I could pull everything off by today. :)

Tomorrow The Awesomes (well most of us) reunite! And then Nick's birthday celebrations at Chjimes probably.

Today would be a darn good experience HAHA. Memories of typical stuff. Heh.

"Thoughts went unspoken, forever and now. Pieces of memory fall to the ground. I won't let this go, cos it's true. I am nothing, without you."

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Bedtime.

Remember 2 posts back I said I was racking my head for 19 prez?

Guess what, I settled everything needed already! 19 prez, all done. :) whee I feel so accomplished. Thanks rubs for accompanying me to get the remaining stuff yesterday!

I have something up my sleeve. Can't wait for the 7th of January!
And school's gonna start on the 10th. :/ SP program here I come then. Hahaha.

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