GoodbyeGravity.

First day of school today. SP program for me.

I won't deny, it is a very sucky feeling when you see your J2 friends discussing about their hectic timetable and how they have so much stuff to do; it just makes you wish you were part of that circle. But no, nothing's gonna change the fact that I'm a retainee all by myself while they are all J2 students.

But really, is moping about this sucky feeling all I wanna do? True that it sucks a lot and the feeling really bites and stings. But I retained for a reason, simply because I'm not up for J2 yet and this is my second chance to prove myself and everyone that I WILL be able to do it. I'm just taking longer in my journey. If I want change, I have to do something about it to feel better instead of letting fate play with me.

So, I am gonna be that difference. I am gonna show everyone that I will be able to thrive under such circumstances. The Fionella from 2010 and before would cry and mope under such situations. Not this time. I'm not going to let my tears and fears overwhelm what I can really do. I am not going to wallow in despair when there are plenty of options for me to choose from.

The ride's gonna be one tough one. It's like you don't know what to expect, but yet you do. But I know I'll come out just fine. :)

<3 nella.