So the release of the re-exam results were released yesterday.
I'm retaining. Bitter pill to swallow, but I'm feeling much better about it. Although I must say, it still stings quite a fair bit. Yesterday was an emotionally taxing day. Cried so many times... And I was in town. This feeling of sadness isn't the normal type of sad, and I really really didn't understand the way I acted yesterday. Ah but still, I thank bro, claris, sattish and rina for trying to make me feel better, which you guys kinda did. :)
And at least I'm not taking horrid Geography anymore. I've learnt that interest overpowers past (miraculous) academic achievements. Hence, I'm taking the huge jump from Geography to something I really really adore, History. Clean slate on 2011.
But the most saddening thing is, I'm retaining. Alone. While all my closest people in school are going up. It's sad to know, really because I love my close friends even more than myself. I don't want things to change between us...
Flying off to Cambodia for 6 days tomorrow. I should really channel that sadness to doing my utmost best to alleviate the poverty of the kids there. I'm gonna have fun. :)
<3 nella.
Dear Fionella FOOL,
ReplyDeleteYou're a strong girl,so damnit, stop putting yourself down. You're not fat, you're not stupid.
Seriously, your esteem has hit rock-bottom and just know one fact, there's always ppl worse off than u and better than you.so its either vanity or bitterness. I suggest u aim to choose NEITHER. (don't compare yourself or wish to be somebody else.)
Buck up and pull up those ankle socks of yours.
love, lanky.