I Can Only Imagine.

Nationals starts tomorrow for me. 2 races. Both I know I'd definitely not make the semi's for, but I'm gonna put in my best.

Was dorwning myself in MercyMe's I Can Only Imagine to calm my nerves down. heard that song during GP today and it reall did made me feel better. Just watched this video about a father-son pair as well, Dick and Rick Hoyt. Watched it during GP and wanted to watch it again. Somehow I felt God used GP to communicate with me.

The logic is, this amazing father-son pair has taught me not to give up. Even when all the odds are all against you, you just have to keep perservering. You don't have to win, but the efforts put in are tantamount to your victory. I just wanna do my best tomorrow. My 2 final races.

Besides listening to the song, I'm hugging my jacket with Nick's smell and this combination, together with prayer, is really making me feel much much better. I've come to a realisation that I need my faith. God is really a huge part of my life and as much as I shun Him away, I know that I can always rely on Him. <3

Today's the 12th. So it's the end of one chapter. 26th + 12th = one chapter. One chapter down, looking forward to many more with you, Nick. You're seriously one of the best damn things that has ever happened to me and I can't find a reason to let you go, love. I love you with all the love I can ever give to anyone and with all my might, heart and soul. <3

Gonna snooze soon to gain ample rest. Wish me luck. Not for me to get into the semis by luck. But for me to feel a sense of accomplishment despite not making it through.
Thanks xoxo.

<3 nella.